Well, for weeks I have been fretting over turning 40. How would I feel? Would I greet the day with trepidation or welcome it with open arms? Would a meltdown occur?
I am happy to say that the day has been wonderful. I woke up feeling more comfortable in my skin than I have for a while now. I greeted the day with a sense of calm and came to terms with some issues that were bothering me. I look forward to engaging in a new decade. The decade of my 30's was good to me and I wonder if some of my trepidation wasn't just sorrow over leaving that decade.
The day has been a beautiful day. The weather was rainy & overcast, which for me is a blessing. When it is sunny and warm, I feel like there is so much I should be getting done. I want to absorb every minute & every molecule of sun that I can get. A rainy, overcast day causes me to slow down, be house bound and just take some time to relax. Little did I know that rainy, overcast day was being caused by a nor'easter that by the time I wake up in the AM will have either dumped 10-12 inches of snow on us or 2-4 inches of rain. Late April Showers....Hoping for May flowers.
My husband is a wonderful guy and I am so thankful for him. For weeks I took my anxiety out on him. Explaining that I didn't want my 40th birthday to go by unnoticed. That I didn't want it to be just another birthday. But than the next day the anxiety would change to me fretting about what I considered to be failures in my life. Milestones that I hadn't reached by 40. Milestones that had been ingrained into me and that I couldn't reconcile with.
He did a great job in the weeks leading up and today. His patience with me is a blessing. The cupcakes, the photo album, the cards that made me laugh & than cry (and cry again now that I am thinking about it), the over the top gift of the DSLR camera and a beautiful dinner out at a restaurant I have been wanting to try for a long time now. It was a wonderful day and I look forward to a wonderful year.
My mother said that I should be receiving cashmere & diamonds for my birthday..to her I say..my husband got it just right!
To my husband I say..THANK YOU SO MUCH. It was a perfect day. Made even better when you told me you got me my points at the Hallmark store! What other guy would be so thoughtful to realize his wife is a Hallmark addict & be sure to get her the bonus points! You Rock!
And just one more 40th birthday story, because this is just so typical of who I am. I was rushing to pee before we headed out for dinner. I tried to slide behind John in the bathroom. Well slip is what I did. I slipped on the rug near the tub & twisted my ankle. Not to be deterred, I kept on going. I am a gal & I did have to pee after all. So being the multi-tasker that I am, I figured that while peeing I would fold up the rug that I tripped on. In such slow, slow motion, I managed to reach over for the rug, fall off the toilet, catch myself halfway on the edge of the tub and more or less fall into the tub. Than I couldn't get myself up because my pants were down. Oh My Goodness. What a sight I must have been. I couldn't decide wheter to laugh or cry. I am happy to say I am okay & as of right now nothing is too sore. But just typical for me. That makes 2 full out accidents I've had in the new bathroom. Someday I'll learn to slow down.
Cheers and Happy Earth Day!
P.S. An update..Miss Winnie is doing much better. The seizures seem to have subsided. She is back to running the woods with her sister and chasing small critters-that they never catch.
Miss Emma (our fat cat) was diagnosed today with cancer. She has gone from 23 lbs down to 12 lbs. We are making her as comfortable as possible.
